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itz been ages since ive last blogged...i guess...abt 3 months?...lol...school is horrible...in an affectionate way...:D...haha...juz had selection trials 4 e worlds...screwed...again...finished 13th...not a very qualifiable position...haha...n the worst thing?...the only 2 girls in our squad get 2 go...and theyre only half my standard!!...exaggerated of course...im pissed...itz juz so unfair...not fair not fair...argh...fuck...i tried my best....n it wasnt good enuf...i hate myself...itz a terrible feeling...2 actually go 4 e qualifiers twice in two years n not yet be able 2 go....it sucks...big time....and it gets worst when ppl who cant make it there are paying to go....6k!!!! my life savings...thats the amount needed if i want 2 go to the worlds entirely without financial aid...sigh...life has to go on... nsrcc regatta next week...do my best?..i dunno..haha...c got mood anot....cheers....n o ya...to those who qualified....congrats n good luck...hope u guys perform well.....n SCREW wilbur!!!!!!!!!!!!!...haha