The winding path....

sleepless in singapore

2005-09-07T03:59:00.000+08:00

gosh...woke up at 2 in the morning...couldnt sleep....walked around... crashed into walls... made some unnecessary noises....went to toilet....tripped over wires....finally sat in front of this nice monitor n began blogging...:) dosed off yesterday nite...didnt get a chance to reply to her msg....bleh~.... newayz...i earned myself $30! from doin cip on saturday....and i juz got my spex grant...$300....in total, im $330 richer....haha....hmmm...still need to save up more for my end of the year training trip to aussie...no confirmations yet whether ill b goin though... sometimes i feel really lost in my surroundings....many times asking myself what am i training for?...my goals?....what are they?...achievable?...i dunno....why i did what i did to be where i am today?....am i on the right track?...all im hanging on to now is my belief in the choices i make....and even that....is juz a thread

mayb i should give up....

2005-08-20T10:15:00.000+08:00

i'm so naive...for all i know, they may only b frenz...but i cant help feeling this way....2 guys...1 hotshot....1 really smart guy from a brand-name school.... im chinese...theyre malays....do i even have a chance of showing her how i really feel?....oh god....i sound really jealous n all broken apart...all messed up...at least theres sailing to take solace in....n im in no freakin mood to change the skin....so dont bother asking....

ah....

2005-08-09T09:06:00.000+08:00

She got me mesmerized....im crazY over her....when is the next time?....Am i in love? stoopid questions to ask..... aniwaeZ....its national day today! weeeee!....Lol...i love singapore...haha...so patriotic...:P 40 years of hardwork....thats why we are where we are today.....sIngapore is getting old...we must keep up with other nations.... and Not fall back in the changes for the future....haha...i hate blogging...dont wanna think....lol...i'll end here then....reAlly short...heh... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

alive again!...mayb not?

2005-07-09T14:51:00.000+08:00

im juz blogging cuz iv nth else to do....dont set ur hopes up too high ya?...lol..anywayz...lots have happened sinced iv last blogged...all injuries healed...getting back my form in sailing...it feels good to be back 110%! haha...and i juz blurted out my feelings to someone....how embarassing...lol...the national inter-schools are over...i did badly...as usual ...light wind...stoopid conditions...i had some good races though...haiz...its always the same crappy conditions...lol...i guess im not cut out to do well in it....haha...but im looking forward to next yrs intersch...so u byte sailors out there...watch out!...lol...met my ex-schoolmate/friend at e interschs...shes quite cute i guess...lol...:P ...very smart too...u peeps think im a flirt now?....lol...no way...i think...:D shes really nice...very intellectual...but as i said....only a friend....sigh....here i am..spending my time doodling away...typing all this shitty stuff...lol...i guess i gotta find something else to do now...cheers!
~bring on the challenges ahead......because to them, you're their challenge~

a series of unfortunate events

2005-05-02T15:00:00.000+08:00

today is a public holiday...as yesterday was may day...but as it turns out...it was 1 of my worst experiences in my 14 years of childhood....first....the wind was sooo strong...i juz sailed my butts off.......then...there was tar.....it stained a boat which has just been washed that very morning....this is not all...after the practice race...lightning struck close 2 us...near shore....n finally...when i recovered at shore...the waves juz pushed my boat onto shore....probably creating many nice scratches on my boat....*&@!#!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....ugh...that really sux....everything that could go wrong...went wrong....

im jealous

2005-04-09T09:12:00.000+08:00

im jealous....life is so unfair....im still jealous...u dont wanna know y....jealous jealous jealous....such a unique word...the exact way im feeling rite now...jealous...hmph....Anyway...apart frm that....shes coming bac tml...yupyup...and im rigging my laser today....yay...btw....im still jealous....:D

Laser

2005-04-03T12:15:00.000+08:00

im leaving the byte class soon and moving on to the laser.....not a bad move since im not exactly doin very well in byte...shes leaving 4 jakarta todae...hope she does well...back 2 prison tonite...nth much 2 say...so i take my leave...Laser... here i come!...o ya...did i say my back is screwed?...iv got a back injury...a serious 1..something to do with e disc...can nver fully recover...lol...but im lucky i can still sail...yay...ok...ciaoz

uhoh

2005-03-21T13:31:00.001+08:00

itz been ages since ive last blogged...i guess...abt 3 months?...lol...school is horrible...in an affectionate way...:D...haha...juz had selection trials 4 e worlds...screwed...again...finished 13th...not a very qualifiable position...haha...n the worst thing?...the only 2 girls in our squad get 2 go...and theyre only half my standard!!...exaggerated of course...im pissed...itz juz so unfair...not fair not fair...argh...fuck...i tried my best....n it wasnt good enuf...i hate myself...itz a terrible feeling...2 actually go 4 e qualifiers twice in two years n not yet be able 2 go....it sucks...big time....and it gets worst when ppl who cant make it there are paying to go....6k!!!! my life savings...thats the amount needed if i want 2 go to the worlds entirely without financial aid...sigh...life has to go on... nsrcc regatta next week...do my best?..i dunno..haha...c got mood anot....cheers....n o ya...to those who qualified....congrats n good luck...hope u guys perform well.....n SCREW wilbur!!!!!!!!!!!!!...haha

misery...

2004-12-20T20:15:00.000+08:00

gosh....itz been ages since i blogged...lol ok....2 start with...2004 is coming 2 an end.......n i juz got my $300 grant from e sports council...yay!....haiz...away frm that...y cant someone juz save me e misery n what-have-u....by juz telling me straight that she is busy on a particular day?....saves me from having false hopes......1 moment shes free....e next moment....shes not....put it simply.....could'nt we juz find a day where we can juz sit down n talk?....sigh...im so angry with myself....i guess itz my fault 4 always picking a day where u are busy.....
~my feelings 4 u will nver change~

A new Era....

2004-11-01T18:59:00.000+08:00

hi everyone!....itz been a long time since my last post...finger still bugs mi...lol...school term has ended.....and ill b missing lots of people....and there r some ppl i want 2 thank....the teachers....for their undying care n patience..... some of my class mates....who bring colour into my life......the principal and those admin ppl who helped my transfer run smoothly....and of course...there r those villains in class....foreva annoying and irritating.....but i thank them 4 pushing my patience to the limits...:D....it will b difficult 2 let go....but life HAS to go on.....this will b the end of a long chapter......and the beginning of a new 1. The sports school is an alien concept to me....this will b a brand new experience....and i daresay that juz thinking of the many facilities that they offer has already set mi on FIRE!!....lol....new friends...new surroundings....it will b difficult to blend in...but definitely not a problem...:)....there will b new challenges ahead...n im raring to take them on...leaving the past....and thrusting into the future....it will b exciting....dont u think?....but memories of east spring will alwaez be somewhere shackled in my mind.....nver forgotten.....TO INFINITY....AND BEYOND!

2004-09-18T22:02:00.000+08:00

My fractured finger....not gonna blog 4 a loooonnng time!

jinx!

2004-09-12T09:23:00.000+08:00

ah!....stoopid...realli stoopid...smt stoopid happened yesterdae...everything was fine...the wind was great....the weather was good....i had a substitute boat 2 use frm noss...ppl lyk calvin arent here...wad more can i ask 4?.....but then....after our training....we were on the "run"...goin bac 2 shore...in the bay..when we were closing in...RACHEL....the sports school 1....was juz on the right side of my boat...my boom tilted n touch her back...as i haf already warned her 2 watch out....but right after it touched her...she turned...causing her own boat 2 follow suit...thus POINting up....making mi CAPSIZE!!!!....wah lau...tt reaslli sucked bigtime....and ming was oso dam irritating during e training...lol...oways toking nonsense....o ya...i watched the terminal on fridae with *some frenz*.....realli nice show...quite touching....tom hanks is shhooo fat!...okayz...nth more...gotta go sailing in e afternoon...buaiz peeps!

Sweet september...

2004-09-07T19:46:00.000+08:00

Haiz.....im bac ppl...haf 2 write this opening entry 4 this month...haven been bloggin since aug 31st...muz b lazi larh...lol....1stly...my boat has been thrashed....yet again....and i mean a BIG HOLE....wth....guess hus the lucky fella hu did it 2 mi?...marcus...wth...i was dam pissed....but i cooled off after awhile...but i still had 2 pay $100 4 the repair of e boat...my money lah....when it wasnt even my fault...i could nver ever possibly avoid tt collision...haiz...but wad 2 do?...my father insisted...n say no excuses....argh!....not long after...hasd sailing camp with those czp students...gave a talk on tt nite..with all e parents listening oso...abit nervous sia...st time toking 2 such a large audience with no speech prepared....haha...the kids were awfully playful.....seng leong oso spoke on tt nite...he showed his seagames medal 2 the audience....i touched it...wow!...it was realli quite heavy...he joked..saying tt the medal was made of rotting metal...lol...hes a realli cool guy i guess....and finally..todae...had physical test in the gym...whoa...i was in 4 a hard time man...the 2km row was e worst....i was dizzy and cldnt even walk straight after the 2km row...i needed marc 2 support mi...lol...but my timing was great!...onli 4 secs bhind e fastest time...made by julius...dang...onli 4 secs....nvm...i did my best...now im aching all over...i gtg...sleep...haha...snore*

unforgettable trip....

2004-08-31T18:49:00.000+08:00

whhooohoooo!....im back!....any one missed mi?....lol...okok...the trip was great....had a few potholes here and there....but bsides tt....realli was a meaningful trip...haha....had 2 stop aaron from hurting faris n breaking scot's leg....hes dam hot tewmpered sia....oso learnt tt he lyked this malaysian sailor....rufina...she finished 2nd overall...he finished 1st....izzit juz a coincidence?...hmmm...after e race...when he got 1st...he started spouting nonsense tt rufina shld b his bcuz he got 1st....lol...so farni....rufina doesnt even lyk him....lol...sigh....wanna noe how idi in e byte class?....3rd....the malaysianz were awesome....1 of them was an asian champ....dam power sia....adrain chang...wth....got 1st in all 6 races...left mi with no chance....both dayz oso light wind....wah lau....super sway.....i almost got a shock as the other sin sailor, basil, my fren, beat mi in 2 rasces!.....i almost shit my pants....lol....i wanted strong wind....but it nver came....sigh*...after the races, we had 1 free day...went shopping n unc francis treated us 2 seafood dinner....stayed up all nite....lol...onli slept at 3am in e morning...played cards all e time...so fun!...we weere nver tired...lol.....o ya...oso bought some souvenirs...but lost some as i 4got 2 pack it in my bag...argh.....overall a memorable experience....GREAT TRIP!...haha...ciaoz!

yay! Sabah....here i come!

2004-08-26T13:29:00.000+08:00

lol....here i am...with some tme left b4 i leave 4 sabah....juz a final blog b4 i go....haha...im so excited.....and i left school quite earli todae oso...akbar let mi leave....so good....then...we oso had this cme skit todae...it was so farni....i had a hard time controlling my laughter when i went up 2 perform....lol....my suitcase so heavy....then dad ask mi bring extra things...everything oso bring extra...lol...lyk im gonna wet my pants or smt...haha....this will definitely b a fresh and new experience 4 me...i'll oso haf lots of souvenirs 2 buy...wah lau.....lucky got bring "EXTRA" bag....everithing oso muz bring extra...HOR??....lol...ok...im stoppin here...miss y'all peeps....buaiz!

1 more day....

2004-08-25T16:29:00.000+08:00

Pack....pack....pack.....thats wad ive been doing 4 the whole of yesterday night....lol...packin all my stuff...getting rdy 4 e trip 2 sabah....SO EXCITED!.,....lol...but will miss lots of school...miss mi frenz...so on so forth....but 1 minus point....so much hw 2 do when i come bac arh!....wah lau...sure got 2 burn midnight oil...lol...on a brighter note...tml i will onli go 4 half a day of sch....i would leave at recess time...haha.....but still got cme tml....muz do the skit...so farni...almost lyk a comedy....then....o yarh...muz tok abt todae oso...rained so heavily....walked with her 2 e bus stop...came bac all drenched...but it was fun...haha....after this....im gonna cut off mi beautiful hair....AH!.....My beloved hair......there it goes.......wherever e wind blows.....lol...ciaoz!

boing!...boing!

2004-08-20T18:27:00.000+08:00

weeee!....the last day of the week....the weather's good too!...whoohoo!...the wind blowing against my face....aaahhhh....such bliss as i fall into relaxation mode.....WAKE UP!...okok...no rush...lol... "martian" was so good todae...treated me 2 a drink....had robotics...as usual.....*ahem*...*cough*cough*...literature test todae....quite a breeze i guess...i dnt expect 2 do badly in it...lol....but still got sci n math test after e weekends....ahhhh....trouble trouble....more lyk trouble 4 science....muz start revising...then after tt....got sabah trip frm 26th(thurs) to 31st(tues) August...haha...no school!...yea....but i'll definitely miss everyone...including u...hehe...lol....o well...off i go!

phew!

2004-08-19T14:33:00.000+08:00

whoa....both yesterday n todae were nerve wrecking experiences 4 mi.....stoopid debate...i almost wet my pants yesterday!.....soooo nervous....legs shaking...hair falling out...lol....aniwaez...i juz cldnt realli project my speech yesterdae...and we didnt haf time 4 the final speakers, mi and perrine....so we had time 2 prepare 4 todae....The difference was tremendous!....i did not stutter 1 bit....lol....and we put the pressure on e other group....man....it felt good...haha....ther fun part was when we burst their balloons.....so FUN!......lol...abit siao liao....okok...i gtg now .....ciaoz!

*%^&#@!

2004-08-14T07:06:00.000+08:00

argh!....i get angry so earli in the morning bcuz of my sis.....i bet ur reading this now...so eat this....UR BOSSY, STUBBORN.....AND U TINK THIS COMP HAS UR NAME STAMPED ON IT.....dnt bother writing any comments....i would most prob juz read them and u wont change 1 bit....dnt bother coming 2 my room 2 tell mi off...cuz itz true....and when u say itz not true...i say it is...according 2 the impression u gave mi.....u might b tinkin tt im totally wrong...and im bull shitting....well....wad can i say?....if u actually tink tt way...i doubt anything ever gets inside ur head.....there were quite a few times i came into ur room 2 use the comp....and not long after...."GET OUT!"....sigh....i noe this blog can do nth 2 change u....so im juz letting out my anger.

Fantastic day!

2004-07-30T17:50:00.000+08:00

todae was juz awesome!....great day!....bestest best day...lol...okok...a day i'll nver 4get...though i didnt deal with robots todae...somehow or another i did....(if u noe wad i mean)...in someway or another....i somehow actually had dealings with robots...get it?...okok...wads more....ms tay treat mi 2 bubble tea leh!...even when i didnt help her do anything.....shes sooo kind!....wad 2 do?...i got financial problems...so when someone treats mi 2 smt...i get overly excited....haha...okok...realli hope there will b more dayz lyk this....Adios!

swish!swosh!...lol...wadeva

2004-07-28T17:11:00.000+08:00

Abstract art is done by the untalented, sold by the unprincipled and bought by the utterly bewildered.....lol!....sry 2 those guys out there who does abstract art...this is only an abstract from a book of insults....dont take it 2 seriously.... :D....lol....this book is seriously outrageous!...i recommend this book to all thos out there who love literature and would lyk 2 haf a taste of some witty insults...THE BUMPER BOOK OF INSULTS. Great book i muz say.....with realli powerful english...sigh*....itz been a long time since i haf read a good book....wait!...heres another 1...from the moment i picked up your book 2 the moment i laid it down, i was convulsed with laughter. someday i intend reading it....another razor wit tt is sure 2 cut ur ear if not careful...lol...ok ppl...ciaoz!

oopsie daisie!

2004-07-21T18:58:00.000+08:00

blogging is so exhausting....squeezes my brain juice n all...lol...now u noe y i dnt haf much posts in my blog...hehe. lots of things haf happened since the last post...after much persuasion frm ppl around mi...i decided 2 fill this post up...tts if i can find enuf stuff 2 write...:P. let mi see...i skipped 2.4 run...haha...all bcuz ive got some victoria intergrated programme roadshow thingy...then my coach went bac 2 hungary...4 3 weeks!...3 weeks of slacking...but still haf 2 come 4 training lor...sigh*...stressful sia...got all these tests coming up...wth...luckily im not an avid blogger....or else....i dunno wad would happen 2 my brain...(2 scary 2 imagine)...i actually got 17/25 for science quiz!..omg...tts bad...man....wads more...still haf 2 go 4 some admission tests at vjc on saturday...im sooooo unprepared....argh!....hhhhheeeelllllllllpppppp mmmmmeee!
im so close 2 an emotional breakdown....at least i got sailing 2 temporarily relieve me of some stress.....but how much can sailing do?...haiz...troubled dayz.....hope the storm will pass...2 light up the path i take....man...i sound philosophical....haha...okies...ciaoz!

2004-07-10T05:48:00.000+08:00

me sailing!

2004-07-10T05:42:00.000+08:00

a monkey i took a pic of during the intersch....cute rite????

problems...problems....

2004-07-08T13:47:00.000+08:00

I'm in such a dilemma....or should i say many dilemmas?...lol..so many problems 2 deal with rite after the interschs...wahh...my brain's bursting! But i muz say the good news though...i finished 3rd in the intersch sailing champs!...tts if u called tt kind of result good...i lost to a sailor hu onli sailed the byte 4 2 weeks!...wow! but then again...he was in the nat opti squad...and still is...4 quite a few yrs...sniff*...life is cruel..im collecting my prize tml afternoon...and i'll miss robotics...argh..wads more..the instructor might come tml...and on saturday i'll be going 2 victoria 4 their road show on the integrated programme....and on the same day...i haf my 2.4 run!...looks lyk i'll b missing lots during these few dayz...last but not least...i can't seem 2 find a date 2 go out with u to watch a movie...but i'll find one!...lol...o well...ive added a sailing pic in this post...Cheers all!

teehee!

2004-06-29T18:43:00.000+08:00

This post will b short and simple...cuz i haf 2 go for tuition soon...ive been itching 2 write a new blog 4 a looonnnngggg time!....well ...ive done it!...ok...holidaez are over...schools bk...back 2 the hectic ol dayz...ok...lets wrap this up and ill write another 1 tml...